Excessive Hope To Fly

Excessive Hope To Fly
© Surazeus
2024 09 08

Mental gloominess fraught with fulgent hope 
amplifies desolate terror of death 
which penetrates obdurate shield of faith 
with rabid wisdom of acerbic truth 
to support invulnerable happiness 
when I indulge infrangible desire. 

Miserable with excessive hope to fly, 
I wind infinite wrath of taut despair 
to build new self of conscious confidence 
in lowest deep of Hell where I transform 
from fallen demon to angel of faith 
aspiring to rise wingless, fueled by love. 

Though I suffer, so each Heaven seems Hell 
of hopeless hunger I strive to engage, 
my endless desire threatens to engulf 
fragile self I design from fleeting dreams 
so I devour despair with laughing joy 
to treasure my waste land as paradise. 

Jar of my skull spins round on ground of truth 
tall enough to enclose Zephyrean flow 
with bold dominion of aggressive thought, 
signified by concepts of arcane facts 
essential to nature of human desire, 
when I explore weird hills of nameless lands. 

No faceless ghost of arbitrary faith, 
haunting doorless homes where families feast, 
I keep time, winding clock of cosmic truth, 
to measure change each human must endure 
growing beyond childish drama of hope, 
though stuck in stories someone else composed. 

Seamless equity of opportune games, 
foundation that supports ambitious efforts, 
provides time-shifting platform where I play 
role of cosmic herald for global team 
in tragic competition damned by pride, 
obscure with legal terms of binding fate. 

Primordial half-shape my body projects 
is laughing robot programmed to desire 
reincarnation of immortal soul 
with genes that weave new brains from memories 
experienced by ancestors I become 
in loomed fabric of my own divine ardor. 

Peace achieved through honest forgiveness 
sprouts wings of wisdom from my wounded heart 
with courage I employ to explore maze 
of myths that map our psychic cyberspace 
where lonely people perform ancient roles 
of supernatural gods till we all die.