Intense Desire To Live

Intense Desire To Live
© Surazeus
2026 08 19

I feel the ocean seething in my brain 
when I somersault inside the black hole 
that pulses with intense desire to live 
to wake up bound inside this coil of flesh 
that urges me to compete for fresh fruit 
so I generate life before I die. 

I feel vast emptiness of everything 
swell huge through singularity 
in still point at the center of all light 
when galaxies flare forth from flash of thought 
then spiral into strands of clicking genes 
that mold bipedal gods with grasping hands. 

I feel urge to transcend my frame of thought 
so I run laughing on long wooden dock, 
then leap high into heaven of gold clouds 
on time-rewinding wings of Icarus, 
but fate pulls me back down to solid state 
where I laugh wildly on my back in grass. 

I feel expanding scope of consciousness 
envelop Earth with gleam of mental code 
so I dream every soul who ever lives 
as universal mind of mindless self 
who sings in one harmonious melody 
hearts of eight billion separate human beings. 

Suryathi, bright-eyed Goddess of the Sun, 
ascends from gleaming fields of blooming rice 
to fly on bold Apsara wings of faith 
above vast complex of tall tower spires 
and scatters coins of gold on villages 
where farmers bless her generosity. 

Gold river dragon rises from clear stream, 
eyes gleaming bright as diamonds of star truth, 
scales writhing lithe as flames of holy thought, 
and sings uncanny spell of heart insight 
that sparks strange vision of world prophecy 
which I sing as I stroll long road of light. 

Queen Mary steps from wood ship of desire 
and strides wet stones in swirling fog of fear 
to claim with faith the jeweled crown of thorns 
she wears as wise Minerva born on Earth, 
then tells me with soft voice of ocean waves 
that I will build new kingdom of free will. 

Since I am temporary node of thought 
that vibrates spirit of genetic code 
as deathless angel in my mortal shell, 
I order hamburger with tater tots 
and eat lunch at bench in the river park, 
then play guitar and sing of human hope.