Beauty Of Her Hidden Pain

Beauty Of Her Hidden Pain
© Surazeus
2025 01 25

Holding the cracked stone of her wounded heart, 
Zixuan asks the tall willow by the lake 
why people ache with sorrow of the moon 
that seems to crumble into crystal snow 
swirling around her fragile flame of soul 
to erase all the ugliness of life. 

When the willow transforms into slim boy 
Zixuan offers cracked stone of her heart, 
so he accepts dark emptiness of pain 
and, kneeling by the silver lake of eyes, 
dips corrupted oval stone of despair 
to cleanse throbbing matrix of its frail frame. 

Dissolving into millions of small fish, 
the cracked stone of her heart releases flash 
of anguished passion on butterfly wings 
that flutter around her in restless swirls, 
so Zixuan reaches out both hands with awe, 
amazed at beauty of her hidden pain. 

Waking up at dawn to the alarm ring, 
Zixuan dresses and hurries out the door 
to catch the bus trundling down city streets, 
where she ponders meaning of the strange dream, 
then runs from elevator to her desk 
where she sits down just in time to begin. 

While typing numbers in spreadsheet of costs 
to calculate rate of profit and loss, 
Zixuan feels weird glow of transcendent faith 
radiate from center of the universe 
so she floats on fairy wings of desire 
to fly through maze of ever-winding time. 

"So how can I touch your time on my way 
to destiny hidden in cave of love 
where every soul who ever lived on Earth 
floats faceless in diamond eyes of my heart?" 
Zixuan softly sings as she enters values, 
and peers around to make sure no one hears. 

Sudden hear-wrenching screams of abject terror 
shock her and everyone around from work, 
so, when Zixuan sees the man fired last week 
stabbing people as he runs down the aisle, 
she grabs large accounting book with both hands 
and whacks his face so hard he falls back stunned. 

Shaking with surprise as she drops the book, 
Zixuan cries while police swarm into the office, 
then sits and catches her breath to gain calm 
when young police woman records her statement. 
Walking down to the ancient lake of eyes, 
she finds turtle of her heart healed with love.