Indifferent Nature Of Life

Indifferent Nature Of Life
© Surazeus
2026 01 17

Tangled in relentless progress of change, 
I move through maze of life on puppet strings 
in search to find the master of my fate, 
but sense no super-conscious puppeteer 
other than indifferent nature of life 
that drags me into the future of hope. 

My brain projects the future of the world 
I want to see on blank wall of desire, 
but everything that happens in the past 
erases fancy dream of paradise 
so I am blinded by strange light of truth 
that leaves me stranded in a strange new world. 

I wake in future world of strange events 
I never imagined in wildest dreams, 
so I outline on mirror of the sky 
complicated status of social being 
to help me understand where I am now 
somewhere in endless maze of nowhere else. 

While I look at the mirror of my mind 
I get in the way of who I should be 
when I remember who I used to be 
because I know myself better than me 
though I am still alive with flame of faith 
that twists my body into what I am. 

My body flows with endless stream of time 
so I research true nature of my being 
and find unmeasured strangeness of my heart 
embodied by ancestors of my soul 
as numberless characters who make me, 
indifferent with compassion of the dead. 

My inner demon dictates tale of life 
I want to play regardless of the rules 
so I invent advanced conceptual tools 
that help me build vast paradise of truths 
composed of stories that depict in scenes 
life of every person who ever lived. 

I have no answers for questions you pose 
about strange beauty of this world we love, 
surprised by glory of the flaming clouds 
that illuminate silent mountain peaks 
with secret honor of the falling god 
who wakes inside my body as me now. 

Inseminated with pure cosmic light, 
my brain expands beyond bounds of belief 
so I know name of everything that is, 
programmed by circuits of existent souls 
who follow routines of heart-breaking grief 
to offer pamphlets on the end of time.