Perform My Authentic Self

Perform My Authentic Self
© Surazeus
2026 01 05

The more I perform my authentic self 
by expressing strange aspects of my being, 
the more I find in shadows of my heart 
different versions of Me I want to play, 
till I integrate their opposing aspects 
in one whole self revealed by many masks. 

The mad king withers in the castle tower 
while clutching book of stories to his chest, 
but stares at young girl dancing with the flower 
around blind teacher in the cemetery 
where blackbirds talk about philosophy 
with wingless angels eating apple pies. 

The sad priest lingers in the tangled garden 
beneath marble statue of Mother Mary, 
who cradles baby Jesus in cold arms, 
and listens to the young girl with the flower 
sing haunting melody with clarity 
designed to resurrect our souls from death. 

The humble carpenter beside the river 
gathers swords and shields with indifferent hands 
from mangled corpses of barons and knights 
while ghosts explain the secret of success 
revealed by windows in cathedral walls 
refracting sunlight through our fragile bodies. 

Death gazes through the window of my heart 
to count the countless masks of secret selves 
that shimmer in the ancient gallery 
with gentle madness of the golden truth 
preserved in psychic code of fairy tales 
providing framework for our brave lifestyle. 

The honest shipwright with the broken lyre 
copies sea map that Waldseemueller drew 
depicting strange land of America 
framed by universal cosmography 
so I can return home to Avalon 
where Mary sings in Glastonbury Tor. 

The divine savior with celestial wings 
pilots hot air balloon across the sky 
above small bands of hunter-gatherers 
who gasp when bright angel descends on wings 
and teaches them to plant crops and write letters, 
then ascends to Heaven in flashing disk. 

Every mask in the ancient gallery, 
which I purchase from the Many-Faced God, 
represents ancestral soul of my genes 
who generates new life before they die 
because they all wake in my consciousness, 
contending till I morph them in One Me.