Absent Moon Calls Me

Absent Moon Calls Me
© Surazeus
2024 12 19

If absent moon calls me out of my mind 
one demon star swells larger than my heart, 
yet I sway dizzy from vastness of time 
when I rise from bed in cold predawn gloom 
as whisper of your church dress fills the room 
with shadows of thoughts no one ever shares. 

Though spin of timeless fantasy unspools 
reflective phonemes woven into spells, 
I mispronounce secret name in my heart 
to glide over boundaries of ancient truths 
which separate boundless domains of faith 
in precious gardens where wild children fly. 

In rooms of white paper where windows cry 
my eyes bloom lavenders of humble hope 
to twist Me with We in spiraling loops 
which still conflate strange personalities 
with standard characters in romance tales 
who become ghosts in television screens. 

I beam rays of consciousness from my eyes 
as radio signals seeking to transmit 
conceptual vision of my weird world view 
across soft silence of snow-frosted fields, 
so I calmly claim I am the bold farmer 
who transforms the waste land into lush Eden. 

I take for granted the concept of land 
defining space of dirt where I alone 
have right to dwell in harmony with Nature 
who churns fresh cow milk into honey butter 
we spread on bread of arrogant dismay 
when flap of butterfly wings changes fate. 

Absence must be fierce desire of my heart 
to join the circus and travel the world 
so I can find the faceless mate I love 
who waits for me in the lace-quiet room 
while my ghost plays soothing piano tunes 
that swirl into the television screen. 

Leaning over Bridge of Forgetfulness, 
I almost hear whispers of faceless ghosts 
who laugh at how I try to understand 
constant motion of water in the brain 
which animates our universe of forms 
incarnate in children who invent names. 

I try to meditate with calm discourse, 
but swelling pulse of sweet anxiety 
explodes in verses writhing serpent-wild 
when I wrap tentacles of mental demons 
in variant bundles of conceptual truth 
for hungry people to eat psychic cake.