Each Time I Lose Myself

Each Time I Lose Myself
© Surazeus
2026 06 01

I find myself each time I lose myself 
so I run across the waste land of the heart 
and leap abyss of nothingness to soar 
laughing at the crystal moon of faith 
which vanishes to mist as I approach 
so I fall back into my throbbing head. 

I find myself each time I lose myself 
so I dance laughing on the sands of time 
with one hand waving free to grasp the wind 
and scatter seeds of flowers so they sprout 
as rainbow angels wearing human masks 
who dive for memories in sea of dreams. 

I find myself each time I lose myself 
so I stand blindly on cliff of despair 
to map the ancient streets of Neverland 
where faceless children search for Kingdom Come 
that slips away in cold of morning dawn 
at flap of angel wings above my tomb. 

I find myself each time I lose myself 
so I strum Lyre of Mercury with sass 
to chant psychotic spell of eyeless clouds 
that beam elusive riddle of the mind 
when I chase shadow of the ragged clown 
who wants to preach salvation without faith. 

I find myself each time I lose myself 
so I explore fog-swirling ruins of time 
where zombies gather in the Church of Glass 
to worship Vampire King with Crown of Thorns 
who drinks Blood of the Lamb in Holy Grail 
to resurrect our characters from books. 

I find myself each time I lose myself 
so I drive piston-engine time machine 
on winding mountain Road of Honesty 
to find Cave of Illusions in the Alps 
where God-Eye Diamond of my divine heart 
beams first flash that flares forth from the big bang. 

I find myself each time I lose myself 
so I write epic of philosophers 
depicting heroes who quest for the truth 
when they perform in circus of the mind 
amazing acrobatics with weird words 
that formulate atomic principles. 

I find myself each time I lose myself 
so I decide to run for president 
to rebuild institutions through respect, 
constructing from ruins of America 
state of equal rights as Zarathia 
where everyone eats from the Tree of Life.