Vanishing Mist Of Avalon

Vanishing Mist Of Avalon
© Surazeus
2026 01 21

She says she cannot catch the falling snow 
with soft voice hiding how she must not feel, 
and stares around at people in the park 
who walk together in close family groups, 
then peers at the green sun behind gold clouds 
which seems to understand without fake words. 

She strolls with awkward nonchalance of hope 
that something miraculous may occur 
while kicking piles of autumn leaves that swirl 
in sudden gust of wind from kingdom come 
that makes her cackle with unexplained love, 
but hides her mouth and hopes that no one saw. 

She steps sideways just off the cement path 
when seven boys race past her on sleek bikes 
then finds buds on bare twigs most interesting 
when the bright couple with tightly linked arms 
stroll by while laughing flirtatiously calm, 
then she watches them clandestinely sad. 

She thinks about the time her father cried 
when her mother was in the hospital 
sick with some strange fancy-named disease, 
but he ignored her when she came back home, 
drinking beer as he watched basketball games 
while she painted landscapes that no one bought. 

She spots tall man with glasses in tweed suit 
and hair tousled wistfully on his face 
as he reads some thick leather book that seems 
to contain secret knowledge about life 
that might explain how people grow in love 
to sweetly populate the universe. 

She wanders toward him under the ash tree 
with hope to gain knowledge about star runes, 
and tactfully bumps into his right arm, 
then catches the book as it falls with wings 
before his heart can fly into the sky, 
then blushes as she gives it back to him. 

She smiles at faceless ghost of everywhere 
as he mumbles thanks and continues on 
so she sighs sad as Lady of Shallot 
who pines in glass tower for Lancelot, 
though all knights in shining armor have gone 
into vanishing mist of Avalon. 

She stares at mirror-demon of her soul, 
her alter ago who appears from gloom 
to mock her fantasy with grim insults, 
so she returns home and lies in warm bed 
while singing heart-aching tunes of lost love 
which causes lightning flash to crack the world.