Desolation Of The Mind

Desolation Of The Mind
© Surazeus
2025 02 02

When I reach desolation of the mind, 
Glaucus ponders while floating in the sea, 
my spirit is revived by song of sirens 
who call me with weird language wind designed 
so I declare with laughter I am free 
from conceptual angst of fearful environs. 

Yet when I hear my thoughts inside my head 
rambling with random conclusions of fate, 
I wonder what false logic I contrive 
to prove my bravery can dispel this dread 
that hovers over me with wordless hate 
when I ask Glow Cloud how I can survive. 

When I was young and running on the beach 
my father always spoke to me of ways 
that he employs as rituals to catch fish, 
yet now his faceless spirit out of reach 
speaks to me from Glow Cloud in misty haze 
as if he dreams inside my secret wish. 

Though he is gone, long crumbled into sand, 
his voice speaks from my mouth in his same words, 
so now his spirit glows inside my flesh 
with angry passion vibrant with this land 
where I roam wild and sing with hostile birds 
through taut concern entangled in vast mesh. 

When bright sun bleeds on mountains in the west 
and soft shy moon nests on thick bed of pines, 
I rise from ocean wave with strength of hope 
to blaze secret trail on clandestine quest 
in dusk-dim forest where no sad star shines 
to rest in my cave on steep meadow slope. 

Long evening shimmer of motionless time 
enshrouds my aching body with soft hum, 
so I smile at Glow Cloud who watches me 
with unseen face of my father at chime 
of smooth crystals that calculate the sum 
of memories I leave floating on the sea. 

Half asleep in dim gleam of early night, 
I sense ghost of my father sitting near 
whose voice relates fierce battle of respect 
he fought with savage dragon of sunlight 
too many days to count from jagged fear 
with wounded pride his laughter must correct. 

Awake with startled anguish of concern, 
Glaucus strides back down to the ocean beach 
to catch writhing sea serpent with sharp spear, 
then roasts it on hot flames so death can learn 
that he shall claim her treasures beyond reach, 
because this world is one huge spinning sphere.