Twilight Of My Mortal Life

Twilight Of My Mortal Life
© Surazeus
2025 10 13

In the long twilight of our endless life 
that ends in soft silence of nothingness, 
after mountain rapids of our frantic youth 
we drift on broad delta of solitude 
in calm acceptance of our final death 
after working to help build state of peace. 

Through all the twists and turns of random fate, 
where we find ourselves on some crowded stage 
stuck in uncontrolled drama of weird scenes 
that leave us wounded in miserable pride, 
we progress toward achievement of success 
that we define after we have arrived. 

While wandering nowhere on the signless road 
as I hitchhike from sea to shining sea, 
from Oregon east to the fantasy land 
where my ancestors first arrived from far 
across the sea four hundred years ago, 
I follow unseen spirit of my heart. 

Only now, after more than sixty years, 
can I pause in the Shaconage Hills 
and look back on random road of my life 
to see the goal for which I always strived 
as Guiding Star that lead me to this place 
since I create my fate with each new choice. 

Blue mist of evening floats among tall oaks, 
refracting sunlight through unmoving leaves 
which casts eerie glow on walls of my home 
in which I see bright vision of my heart 
beamed clear as angel of my aptitude 
who commissioned quest of my stoic heart. 

Clear vision glows still in my aging heart 
how wise Athena on angelic wings 
appeared to me thirty-one years ago 
as flash of lightning in Seattle rain 
to give me crystal tablet of world truth 
with quest to map whole history of the Earth. 

Bearing Lyre of Hermes and Globe of Krates, 
I journey east across Zarathia 
to weave time-animated globe of Earth 
from tangled threads of mythic memories 
so we can see grand journey of our souls 
as we evolve four hundred million years. 

My own brief journey on this spinning globe 
has been straightforward in its curving path 
across the varied landscapes of my hopes 
from Oregon to find lost Avalon 
that shines now only in my wordless dreams 
in the long twilight of my mortal life.