Find Out Who I Am

Find Out Who I Am
© Surazeus
2025 11 02

I travel far to find out who I am 
by walking signless road of everywhere, 
face blazing with unnatural light of faith 
that luminates strange darkness of my heart, 
but I keep hidden secrets of my soul 
so none but Death could guess my skillful role. 

Though shadows of infinity crawl slow 
with shifting turn of suns across the sky, 
I sound my voice in silence of the world 
that echoes up the sun-lit street of fate 
where sadness walks beside me in the heat 
and tells me secrets no one else could know. 

I want to know where roots of trees grow deep 
through fractured diamonds of obdurate pride 
to ever-spinning center of the world 
where mind of God pretends it knows its name 
though none but devils trapped in human form 
deem rules of games defined by molecules. 

I sing my small tale in the giant world 
while slow clouds tumble over hungry hills 
to flow with rain in winding river play 
where people who created me from mud 
dissolve to dust that swirls in sudden wind, 
translating substance to concepts of words. 

My tongue would kiss the sun awake from night 
beyond primordial chaos of wild storms 
till voices of my dead ancestors ring 
with sparkling swirl of water over stone 
in quick perpetual dance of energy 
that fuels my restless journey somewhere else. 

When light of dawn undoes my careful words 
that shatter into shards of innocence, 
I ditch deep ditch of hope to irrigate 
dry fields of weeds and crickets who still sing 
when haze of mist shrouds ruins of my dreams 
and frost of fear melts from my pulsing heart. 

Awake from weirdness of in-between times 
on wind-swept landscape of forgotten fears, 
I wrap my fragile skeleton of stones 
with flashing words of elegant surprise 
to understand the lively laugh of love 
that motivates my journey beyond death. 

Hard ground of rolling hills on which I walk 
considers nature of my dreamless mind 
light as the tree that spirals toward the sun 
with tender arrogance of loyalty 
so I transcend tight limits of my soul 
to find I am me everywhere I go.