Understand Who I Am

Understand Who I Am
© Surazeus
2024 12 06

When I enter quick stream of consciousness 
shiver of absolute beauty expands 
my sense of self far beyond bounds of time 
so I become everything that has been 
and everything that will ever become, 
which helps me feel limits of who I am. 

Every vision about life that has flashed 
in every organic brain of I Am 
on every planet in the universe 
also flashes nodes of thought in my brain 
which share universal tropes of respect 
so all think the same thing at the same time. 

Yet I am special instance of the Mind, 
unique in patterns for my here and now, 
enclosed in program loop of hungry hope 
attempting to reiterate concepts, 
important keys to understanding why 
atoms congregate to animate me. 

So I stand with this face that is my own 
at my window in my house on my land 
which forms temporary empire of thought, 
and here envision virtual globe of Earth 
based on perceptions through analysis 
my memories compose in one world view. 

Floating on wings of superconsciousness, 
I attempt to avoid getting restrained 
by cause and effect in narrative flow 
by circling back around on loop of thought 
to repeat cycle of growth and decay 
that pulses waves of molecules through me. 

My sense of conscious self is limited 
with framework of my conceptual skull, 
for I am bounded in nutshell of mind 
and count myself king of infinite space 
because I dream complete flow of all time 
with flashing nodes of neurons in my brain. 

Though I am constrained by the here and now 
I fly on wings of whole imagining 
to visit every land on every world 
in every era of transforming change 
to live whole life of every conscious soul 
so I better understand who I am. 

I sail integral boat of my whole self 
down ever-flowing stream of consciousness 
to trace conceptual journey of my soul 
on map depicting landscape of my heart 
so I can navigate past obstacles 
to find Heaven where we dwell in our home.