I Recollect In Anxiety

I Recollect In Anxiety
© Surazeus
2024 02 02

When I analyze events of my life, 
which I recollect in anxiety, 
I open safe in which our dreams are kept 
to free the Phoenix of our empire state 
so wild butterflies turn into jet planes 
flown by wingless angels of Zathamar. 

Though I keep forgetting who I am now, 
which I recollect in anxiety, 
I lie still on round eyeball of the hill 
to feel eight billion human beings breathe light 
that pierces my heart with sorrowful joy 
from cruel fact that every soul will die. 

Attempting to forget regretful acts, 
which I recollect in anxiety, 
I run along the winding river shore 
to fight each monster I meet on the way 
till I can dance with victory of faith 
inside deep grave that Nature digs for me. 

If I could resurrect from rotten corpse, 
which I recollect in anxiety, 
I would transcend changing forms of this world 
to mold my body in its perfect type 
based on Idea of the Noble Man 
which I personify after I die. 

When my demons and I explore the Earth, 
which I recollect in anxiety, 
I begin to believe outrageous plan 
that I can conquer and rule the whole world, 
so I write prophetic book of lame jokes 
which makes everyone doubt that they exist. 

In love with chaste goddess of modesty, 
which I recollect in anxiety, 
I ask Pudicitia to marry me 
but she veils long flowing locks of her hair 
and peeks in my eyes from eternity 
that glows around her in halo she wears. 

Breaking bread with companions of my heart, 
which I recollect in anxiety, 
I ponder logistics of moving dirt 
to channel flow of passion from the sky 
so we can water fields of golden wheat 
that bloom from bodies of our nameless dead. 

Searching the broken world for our lost home, 
which I recollect in anxiety, 
I savor beauty of this naked hour 
when I stand still as sunlight on the sea 
to remember strange events of my life 
that blur into eternity of now.