So I Name Myself For

So I Name Myself For
© Surazeus
2023 08 12

Across effervescent spectrum of faith 
I walk outside door of the crowded church 
to stand in harsh reality of sunlight 
and feel eternity of wordless truth 
in solid nothing of heat on my skin, 
so I name myself for the faceless light. 

Through tragic tales of heroes we adore 
we learn to avoid mistakes of our hearts 
in restless agony of hopeful fear 
while I wrestle with demon of despair 
who roasts my eyes with beams of ancient truth, 
so I name myself for the restless sea. 

Approaching Tree of Knowledge on skull hill, 
to understand good and evil as ghosts 
urging my hands to create or destroy, 
I wrestle cruel serpent of ignorance 
to steal sour apple of wisdom from Death, 
so I name myself for the fruitless grave. 

Reborn as Phoebus with electric lyre 
that twangs disharmony of fractured verse, 
I reassemble fragments of lost dreams 
in sprawling puzzle that depicts in scenes 
history of humans fighting for control, 
so I name myself for the mapless vale. 

With proud regret for how I failed the test 
performing ritual of high angel flight 
I map whole history of the human race 
as we evolve four hundred million years 
from fish to wingless angel in the church, 
so I name myself for the eyeless seer. 

I walk along stone walls of paradise, 
among angelic butterflies of joy 
till I wake with omen of my weird dream 
that gentle lions sharpen claws of rage, 
then I leave Eden through its open gate, 
so I name myself for the crownless king. 

With giant wings unfurled from my sad heart 
I lose my arrogance for vanity, 
then drink dragon brain wine in red moonlight 
to reinvent world view of hungry minds 
through transmutation of my divine soul, 
so I name myself for the deathless queen. 

Since I will never know with certainty 
that spells I sing will prophesy the truth, 
I walk with Death on timeless ocean shore 
and sing elegiac love song to my Muse 
who scatters my body across the Earth, 
so I name myself for the faceless god.