Fish In Dark Lake

Fish In Dark Lake
© Surazeus
2023 05 16

Whatever you choose to think about me 
still happens entirely inside your head 
like fish in dark lake where I never swim. 
Dull sorrow of silverware in dry grass 
relinquishes compassion on torn wings 
across confusing plains of Idaho. 

Cold waves of sweet indifferent attitude 
reluctantly crawl over rancid mud 
to calculate distance between mind states. 
They look away from faceless ghost of who 
shot by stray bullet in blue evening light 
while driving to the grocery store of faith. 

She smiles with beauty for the photograph 
that captures essence of elusive faith 
at falling of the devil from his tower. 
I have no country but the open book 
that floats in water of abandoned tub 
still sailing homeward on the anguished sea. 

I turn down rubbled street in search for bread 
while angels born from lust of nevermore 
watch me behind thin curtains of contempt. 
I shovel sorrow of the eglantine 
with red dirt in the gaping mouth of time 
to engineer how language defines fate. 

Detribalized by bankers charging tax, 
I journey nowhere to the Promised Land 
while singing in the bleak Missouri rain. 
I wait outside the empty church of fear 
to pray for salvation from the blind god 
who disappears in words of bleeding books. 

Soft velvet cover for the book of poems 
elides efficient truths of holy wars 
so slaves become acquainted with the night. 
Still lonely on stark crag of Scottish hills, 
she watches me with eyes of glowing moss 
so green beneath the silver fairy pool. 

The laughing puppet of authority 
declares we shall not talk about the weather 
so we talk about crimes of the proud tyrant. 
She lowers bucket in the wishing well 
but finds no treasure, except bleeding star 
which silences loud voice of the mad seer. 

The last tomato of the third world war 
flies toward cracked windshield of the racing car 
which transforms into the arrogant horse. 
Whatever I choose to think about you 
still happens entirely inside my head 
like fish in dark lake where you always swim.