Anguish Of False Guilt

Anguish Of False Guilt
© Surazeus
2025 10 28

Quaint heart tortured by anguish of false guilt, 
I watch as billions of people contest 
over who can eat spirit of the land 
that blooms in crops transforming light and rain, 
and seek to disconnect my hungry soul 
so I savor beauty before I die. 

Ignoring oneiralgia in my heart 
to dwell in sweet utopian fantasy 
that billions of god-believers long for 
as socialist Heaven in paradise, 
I edit geospatial data files 
that depict true features of our real world. 

This Heaven, that philosophers have preached 
as ideal version of cities on Earth, 
presents farm estate as communal space 
where every person breathing soul of life 
is equal in their social-justice rights 
where we do what we will, if we harm none. 

Yet real cities of nations on this Earth 
are power pyramids based firm on wealth, 
arranged in hierarchies of social roles 
where farmers and crafters, who make with hands, 
support group managers and warriors 
who work under one ruler-judge of all. 

Humans arrange governments of their states 
around one leader who manages all 
by setting rules that control how we act 
as we create food and goods from the ground 
through construction and destruction of things 
which runs our world food-production machine. 

When I am shocked by anguish of false guilt, 
I pause to analyze how I perform 
acts of my hands to create or destroy, 
then I swerve from destructive deeds of fear 
in fierce defense from attacks of blind greed 
so my actions create more than destroy. 

When I see how my actions destroy things 
guilt flashes vision to arrest advance 
so I can readjust progress of change 
to minimize loss of potential stock 
with bold solution to produce new wares 
designed to maximize our fruitful growth. 

We design persona of the Good Leader, 
whom we idealize as concept of God, 
based on tales of leaders, prophets and kings, 
who have ruled empires the past ten thousand years 
by using guilt to rehabilitate 
people who choose to create good with love.